A mastectomy is a surgery to remove all breast tissue from a breast in order to treat or prevent breast cancer. I underwent chemo and was given the option to have a double mastectomy and reconstruction done all in one procedure.
I thought I was going to feel freakish and gross not having nipples, knowing mastectomy scars are across the whole breast. I'm less focused on how skinny I am, or how much I fit into a cookie-cutter idea of beauty, and much more on being grateful for everything I do have.
I got a lot of attention the past year, and the thought of having more attention because not having breasts was stressful. Woman C: I definitely wanted reconstruction since only one side was removed. However, I had so little extra skin after the mastectomy (my surgeon cut into my chest wall and couldn't get a clear margin) that I had a ridiculously painful tissue expander in my chest for a full year.
My (first) reconstruction happened almost exactly one year after the mastectomy.
Woman C: It's hard to explain because my body changed multiple times over the three years of surgeries.
I can admit that I felt horribly ugly when my hair started to grow in.
There's something odd to me about pretending to have a body part, which is funny, seeing as I have fake boobs.